Time fills itself up

..or: what I’ve been doing the past few weeks. (tl;dr – nothing much)

I’m still officially on my not-quite-a-holiday-but-not-quite-working-either period. I was hoping to have a few weeks of absolutely nothing on my hands: no obligations, no chores, no must-do’s, no anything. The last time I had a period like that was after I left Japan and was in Holland with my parents for a few months. I tried to tell myself that such a period was still possible, but I really kinda knew already that it wouldn’t be.

In-between holidays and holiday planning I ended up searching for rental apartments, houses to buy and jobs. Since I decided I wanted I car, I had to decide which car to buy and deal with all the arrangements around that. I was expecting a bit of quiet after my sister came to visit, but because a middle-aged lady ran her car into mine I had to deal with getting the insurance money and the garage (which still isn’t quite dealt with, by the way..). Then a chance for a beneficial holiday presented itself, meaning I had to deal with delaying my resume date for work.

I had unreasonably expected another period of quiet right around now, but was wrong again. The car insurance thing is still going, so no mental peace there. Furthermore, I need to deal with renewing my passport, since it expires within 6 months, and accommodations for the next holiday aren’t quite perfect yet. Lastly, after the track day I did with the GT86 the brakes felt like they’ve grown a bit weaker, so I’ve been researching about which brake pads, discs and fluid to buy. I have to say that they’ve firmed up again after this week’s rain, so it’s not a necessity, just a luxury problem to ensure that the next track day goes more smoothly.

Lastly, I came back from holiday yesterday and some chav children decided that it would be fun to fuck around near my car. I was walking towards them from a distance when I noticed them touching it, and they appeared to be play-fighting and throwing themselves across the street, flinging each other into whatever came in their path, including my car. Yesterday was quite possible the first time in my life that I managed to intimidate someone (with language of course, not violence). The incident made me realize that I wanted to beef up my surveillance setup, for which I got a raspberry pi and infrared camera plus light. I spent half of today trying to get that set up, only to be rather disappointed by the frame rates. It seems to be a work in progress, though, as with everything Linux. At least the resolution is good. Still, setting it up properly will keep me busy for quite some time.

This is how time works. There’s no such thing as ‘free’ time. As soon as a time slot appears free, something immediately fills it up. There’s no use fighting it. Just accept it and fill as many slots as you can with things that you enjoy.

A long summer break. I’m actually kind of looking forward to getting back to work.

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My first track day at Snetterton with the GT86

Two days ago I cheekily booked in a track day for myself at Snetterton. I had been planning to delay my first track encounter until October so I could go with a friend who could introduce me, but I had some free time this week and decided to just go for it. My first time driving a proper road car for performance.

A two-hour drive later and I arrive at Snetterton. I’m fairly early but some other people are already done with the signup. It doesn’t take too long, and I’m soon waved away to get my car measured for noise. With that done I just wander around the pit area walking around. There’s not many people yet, and those that are there already are of the young, chavvy kind. Not exactly my kind of scene, nor will it ever be. After a long wait the safety briefing begins, which is not particularly exciting or surprising, except for the fact that you’re only allowed to overtake on the left (since it’s a right-hand track) for safety reasons. Me being the ultimate novice worrier, this puts me at ease a bit. I’ve been waiting 2 hours now, I just want to get going.

After the safety briefing I manage to get one of the instructors to go with me on my first session. Well, second session, because the entire first session consists of introduction laps behind a pace car. I hardly know where to go but soon I manage to get myself and my car in the pit lane, ready for the first laps. I was expecting a reasonably slow parade lap kind of show, since it was just meant to familiarize ourselves with the track, but the group of cars I’m in speed up to near race pace. It caught me unawares but I manage to keep up, unlike a car about 5 cars ahead of me, which soon gives up trying to follow the pace car and starts driving at its own pace. Since we’re not allowed to overtake during the first session, we all drive neatly behind the slower car until the session finishes.

After a short break all the novices head back into the pit lane for the second session, and I pick up my instructor. There’s not much time for chitchat as we immediately head out and I tackle the first corner like a shitty amateur. The instructor reiterates what was said in the briefing about when to brake and makes a comment about the heal-toe downshift I just fucked up. Although the guy, whose name I don’t even know, was rather blunt  in his comments, it did help me out. A bit, at least. Most of the stuff he said was stuff that I should (and do) know already, but in the excitement of actually being out on a real track in a real car, sort of forgot about. So it’s good to have someone next to you to keep hammering it in to you that you should stick to the racing line, brake at the right moments, don’t shift too much and so on. That said, I can’t say that it was the perfect learning environment. There’s just way too many cars on the track, despite the organization claiming that they limit the number of cars for novice sessions.

At some point near the end of the second session my instructor commented: “do you smell that? that’s brakes”. I asked him if it was the brakes of the beaten-down 90s Peugeot driving in front of me, but no, the smell was indeed emanating from my own brakes. At the end of the second session, as I parked up, a Ford Fiesta pulled up next to me and I could see the smoke coming off its brakes. Mine were not quite as bad, but the entire pit lane smelled of burnt-up brakes.

The final two sessions I did all on my own, but I didn’t quite get up to peak performance again because I wanted to spare my brakes. The third session was a very good intro to all kinds of lovely things: locking the wheels while braking and turning, inducing oversteer in a slow corner by powering up too much, and some proper battles with similarly-matched cars. The GT86 really showed its strengths and weaknesses here: I managed to catch up with cars that were faster than me in the corners, but on the straights they would start to outrun me. In the fourth session I had a great time chasing after a Porsche 911 Turbo, which I let pass on the straight and then managed to hold on to for 2 whole laps before my brakes started fading again and I had to slow my pace.

I guess the thing that surprised me the most is how serious things were on-track. It doesn’t matter what kind of person you are off-track, once you’re on the track, it’s just you and the car. You immediately have to be ultra-aware of everything and be in full racing mindset. Another thing that surprised me is how much and how quickly tire wear and brake wear affect the driving experience. I honestly didn’t think that you could fade your brakes in a single 20-minute session. The tires took a bit longer to warm up, but at the end of the third and fourth sessions I could definitely sense that they were more eager to lose grip than they were in the beginning. It could just be that they heated up and were a bit too high on pressure.

At the end of the evening I let my brakes cool down a bit and had a break before heading back home. The brakes had been a bit squeaky before the track day, and they used to be covered with some kind of yellow blotchiness. After the track day they were squeaky clean and without the squeak. There wasn’t much socializing going on between the racers, they were all in their own groups and mostly headed home immediately.

As I drove back doing the speed limit on a dark highway, I felt more in control of my car than before. I know its limits now; when the grip of the tires starts to fade, how much stopping power the brakes can deliver, and what happens if you can’t clear a corner cleanly. All of these are things that you should never need on the public road, but knowing them still makes me feel more confident.

By the way, GT86 torque dip: completely irrelevant on-track. The only reason you’d want this fixed is if you’re only using it on the highway; on track you’d constantly be at higher revs anyway, and then all you’ll want is some serious power rather than a tiny torque fix. Seriously, a lot of the cars I saw on track today were very evenly matched, despite differing BHP levels and different weights. Mostly it came down to driver skill and familiarity with the track. If you’re racing a GT86, first get better brakes, then better tires, then a supercharger (which incidentally should fix the torque dip as well).

Part of me is dying to spend lots of money on my car, to get better brakes, tires, exhaust and maybe a supercharger. But that would be silly. It would be better to get a dedicated track-day car instead, and a racing license, which would offer a more proper racing experience. But that’s not the reason I got this car. GT stands for Grand Touring: for taking your car out on a long trip and enjoying the way it drives. I’m finding out that, to me, perhaps, track days will be a means to improve my skill with the car so I can enjoy it more on public roads. Maybe. That’s how I feel about it right now, perhaps that will change over time. We’ll find out after the next track day .


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GT86: first impressions

(written on 2014/07/19) So, I bought a car! And not just any car. I thought about saving money and going for an economic model, or an old second hand one, but I couldn’t help myself. I went to a used car lot to have a look at a BMW 1 Coupe, but as soon as the diesel engine started and the smell of it reached my nose I realized I did not want a diesel. With that incident my resolve to get an impractical fun level reached the threshold, and I bought a second hand GT86. Woohoo!


The meh:

  • Fuel consumption is not exactly great, but on the bright side, it doesn’t seem to consume that much more fuel if you drive it like you stole it, so no need to hold back :)
  • After a week of driving I’ve gotten used to the power and the sound rather quickly. It’s all very civilized. That’s probably a good thing considering it’s my first rear-wheel-drive car.

The awesome:

  • Dashboard is excellent. Very focused, a joy to use.
  • Lovely short gears. Wow. Such shifting.
  • Handling is ridiculously sharp and does nothing unexpected whatsoever. It feels perfect.
  • Suspension is firm but not too firm. Excellent feel for the road.
  • Very good steering wheel and feedback.

I’ve taken it out almost every day this week, to get a feel for the car and to get to know the roads in my area better. Going northwest of Watford there’s a lot of nice B-roads, where this car seems to feel the most at home. Although you can tell that there’s a lot more potential and power in there that would not be legal to unleash on public roads. Most importantly, the car feels comfortable and confident during longer drives. It’s a great place to be in, and that’s what I wanted. More, much more, to come


Update, a few weeks later. I’m doing pretty much exactly 35mpg, which is the manufacturer-reported mpg. My driving style is a mix of extremely conservative while in city traffic and mildly enthusiastic when getting onto a nice road. I guess everything is as expected. There have been no odd surprises, no unexpected behavior, no strange quirks. The car is as predictable and tame as you’d expect it to be during normal road usage. I can only imagine what it’ll be like on a track, and perhaps I’ll have a chance to take it out on a track day this year. I did have a chance to see a near-identical GT86 perform a parade lap on a track. Oddly enough it was the quietest car there. Literally every other car was louder than the GT86! I couldn’t believe it really. It’s such a tame car when not pushed to its limits. That’s my pervading image of it as I’m driving it. It doesn’t have as strong a presence (personality?) as an RX7 or even a Subaru Impreza would have. All other sportscars seem to be more.. unique than the GT86. Or perhaps I’m just thinking that because I own one now. Still, this is my first (real) sports car. Our personality will grow as we grow.


Update, another few weeks later. The car is fun! I’m becoming more confident in driving my new friend, but I have a lot to learn. I’m really enjoying it though, and I feel excited every time I take it out. My attitude while driving is still mostly ‘get good fuel economy’, although sometimes I have moments of “drive it like you stole it”. The car accommodates either. I’ve been reading about it online to see if it has any quirks, and the only thing I could find was the so-called torque gap in the mid revs, which I do find I actually notice, since the high revs tend to be a bit off-limits on most public roads, so the mid revs are where you want it to start pulling to get up to speed with things. An ECU + exhaust kit apparently fixes this quite nicely, but I’m not quite ready to think about that just yet.

Side note: I also got my first damage.. Just after I parked the car at a supermarket, a middle-aged lady decided to reverse-park into it as I was just walking away from the car. As soon as I heard the scraping I turned around and saw the woman performing the worst ever reverse-park that I ever saw in my life. Fortunately it was only bodywork damage, but it will need to get fixed. What a fucking hassle..


Update, today. The power and rear-wheel-drive-y-ness does let itself known when you’re parking on slopes, especially combined with grass or gravel. It’s entirely possible to either spin the wheels too much or do something naughty to your clutch if you’re not careful. Makes for good training though.

People have been reporting that the GT86 has a torque dip right in the mid range of the revs where it’s slow to pick up compared to the rest of the rev range. I’ve actually noticed this a lot myself lately, because I’m usually too much of a pussy to use the higher revs on public roads, so the highest I go tends to be the mid range. Mild annoyance, easily dealt with by changing driving style a bit, getting an aftermarket ecu and optional exhaust fix, or just putting up with it.

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How to be polite

Original article: How to be polite. HN Discussion: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8178536

I don’t often reply on Hacker News, but when I do, I post it here too because I wrote much wordses.

Excellent article, and I feel it applies to me. maqr’s comment about this being dangerously close to social engineering rings very true, although I doubt that it’s intentional/by choice. Personally I’ve never had a lot of natural conversational skills, so I find myself falling back to old tricks that work at times when I’m not confident, and sometimes they happen to be tricks that relate to social engineering. I’d like to think that this doesn’t make my interactions less genuine. Finding a polite way to proceed through the conversation has not been a problem for me since I learned this.

Lately, rather than moving towards politeness, I’m trying to move away from it. The examples of always replying positively to people, never steering towards or even approach hostility is a very, very tiring path to walk. In my experience, it does pay off on the whole, but I’ve spent a lot of time talking to people that were just never ‘interesting’ or ‘rewarding’ to be with, simply because it always seems easier to please than to confront.

These days I’m trying to move towards blunt honesty with people as soon as I can (after an initial period of polite conversation to gauge if they’d be comfortable with it). So far, I think the people I know appreciate me more for it, and the people who wouldn’t appreciate me for it are not in my life.

Or perhaps it just feels good to try something different.

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The best one yet

I don’t particularly like my own birthday. It always feels like a forced excuse to do something extraordinary. Occasionally, perhaps once every 6 years, I find this amusing, but usually I prefer to spend my birthday as every other day. I won’t go out of my way to keep it a secret, but those who know me know that I don’t need all the extra fuss.

That’s why this year was an awesome birthday: just hanging out at home with a friend and going to a restaurant with the girlfriend. Things I’d do on any other day, and that’s how it should be. Spending it normally is like confirming to yourself the current state of your life. As it so happens, the current state of my life is one I am ultra pleased with.

This year I went on many trips with my girlfriend, had an epic cycling trip and bought a car. It’s also the year in which I’ve gathered unequivocal evidence that buying a house around London is fucking expensive and that I just can’t afford one quite yet. But I’ve got a clear goal now and I can see that path that I must take. During my early years in London I deliberately left the future as open as possible given my constraints, hoping that the ‘one true path’ would show itself. It took a while, but it did. The next steps in the life of the me that I designed for myself are ridiculously clear to see. I’ve removed nearly all ambiguity I used to have about nearly every major life decision that I need to make in the next few years, or even decade.

The design of my immediate future life is complete, now it’s time to start building it. Or rather, to start grinding away to gather resources, but even that can be a wonderful thing if you’ve got a true goal to aim for. Make it so!

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A drive, country roads and the mighty moon

Sometimes, when I’ve been at home too long, I lose interest in the things I genuinely like the most in life. I love playing certain games, watching certain shows and movies, reading certain books or comics, and so on. But after a while I become desensitized to it. My quickfix is to do two things at the same time: play a game that allows for sort-of passive playing while watching a TV show or movie that I can follow without paying too much attention to it. This eventually gets me to stop paying attention to either, and I lose interest in each activity individually. The mind enters a loop state from which it is very difficult to escape. But it is possible.

Exercise is my main way of resetting my brain. It nearly always works, although it will cost you time, a clean set of (gym) clothes, a shower and possibly some sore muscles. But you gain in health, lose weight and reset your mental state, which is well more than worth the cost.  The biggest cost, time, is the one that matters the most. Compared to spending two hours doing apathetic activities, I find it much more enjoyable to exercise for an hour and then be aware, self-actualized and in the zone for the  next hour, actually enjoying the thing I was spending my time on.

Cycling is the next obvious fix for me. The exercise bit of cycling helps to re-actualize yourself, but I mainly derive enjoyment and resetting from the act of being away from home, free on a bicycle, being able to go wherever I want. It doesn’t have to be a speed cycle, although that’s one way to keep pushing yourself after you’ve become too used to cycling. Distance is another nice metric. Unfortunately the weather and the landscape doesn’t always lend itself to a nice cycle. If there’s lots of wind I’ll come back grumpy and dead, and if there’s rain I will probably not even go out. Wouldn’t it be great if there was an outdoor self-actualization activity that wasn’t (entirely) weather-dependent?

But there is! I’ve got a car now! With a car you can go out whenever you want, no matter the weather. Sure, rainy drives are still gloomy, but at least the occasional rainshower won’t bother you as much as when you’re on a bike, and wind doesn’t bother you at all. Plus, wet roads can provide their own entertainment for cars.

I guess the most important thing is variety in the things that you like, and variety within each thing that you like. You can’t always keep doing the same thing in the same way, it’ll dull your mind. I never would have been inspired to write this post if I hadn’t gone out for a drive just now. I found some lovely countryside roads, enjoyed a pretty sunset while on the road and saw a gigantic moon come up over the hills as I was driving back. Brilliant. And sufficiently different from the other things I like to keep my mind from looping.

Fun things are fun! Many fun things are disproportionately funner!

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Real estate around London

If you ever wanted to be in hell, try finding a good rental apartment near London. I’m trying to be tolerant, but the quality of life I would even take for granted living in a tiny apartment in the outskirts of Tokyo is impossible to find for even double the price anywhere near London. Prices have gone so far past common sense that they’ve even passed the limits of  my “if you want something good, be prepared to pay for it” attitude. It’s just not worth it. Living in a room in someone else’s flat is half the price of owning your own studio or one-bedroom apartment, at least if you want something decent. Trying to find an apartment means weeding out at least half of the ads because they’re made by filthy profiteering assholes trying to get a shitload of money for their shithole of a place, while the other half of the ads will be placed by estate agents who will subtly forget to mention some fatal flaw that will cause you to not want it, which you’ll only realize after viewing the actual apartment. This is so poorly done in the UK, yet everyone gets away with it because everybody’s just that desperate to live in London. Shameful. Fucking shameful.

I’m still looking for a place. I’ve visited three places now: one got taken away right from under my nose by another guy viewing it with me at the same time, the other two were cheap-ish but just not enough of a step up compared to what I have now. If there’s anything I’ve learned after months of searching, it’s that there are no deals, no bargains to be had. Every property is priced at its ‘right’ value in the market. If the property hasn’t sold after a few days, there’s something wrong with it. Good properties, even at batshit insane prices, sell within days or even hours. Quickness is of the essence if you want a good place. Even paying more won’t help you that much; if you’ve got a reasonably tight set of search criteria, prices for apartments will be fixed with a 50GBP/month difference at most. Or you can take a spin at the big wheel of apartment roulette and go for a private let, which I still believe is the only way to get a better-than-average deal around London, although it requires a lot more people knowledge, reading between the lines and may take a while until you find a suitable landlord.

Or, you could do us all a favor and get the fuck out of London.

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Finally got hit by a car

It had to happen after years and years of cycling: I finally got hit by a car. I went out for a cycle today to escape the scorching desert that is my room, which just can’t get enough ventilation no matter what I do. During the hottest hours I go out to cycle, and so it was today. I headed north to Watford, cycled through town a bit and then got to the other side of Watford, where there’s a couple of roundabouts where two fairly big roads meet.

I tend to take roundabouts quite fast because I don’t want to spend a long time in places where cars are likely to hit you, but today I was cycling for escapism so I wasn’t going too fast. There were hardly any cars on the road, and I saw the silver MPV approaching from miles away. Well, figuratively speaking.

The car was already slowing down so I kept going at a reasonable pace (I was doing about 20kph according to Garmin). Things would have worked out fine if the car had kept slowing down, but the driver must have been sleeping behind the wheel because she only noticed me a second before she hit me. No offense, but that’s fucking shit driving. I already saw it coming and tried to evade, but couldn’t get out of the way fast enough. I was prepared to fall down on to the asphalt after a hard bump from her car, but I somehow managed to skid-step off the bike as it got cobbled up under her front bumper. I magically escaped without a scratch, thanks to the driver waking up in the last second and actually starting to brake.

My first impulse after realizing that I was somehow still standing in the middle of a roundabout was to make sure that this asshole driver didn’t try to escape, so I made sure to block her path as I guided her to the side of the road. That’s where I realized that she was just this poor Indian woman who totally had no clue what she was doing and was visibly quite shaken.

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I tried rolling the bike to the side but that didn’t work at all, and you can see why in the above photo. I definitely need a new rear wheel. At first I was worried that the frame was bent and the front wheel was damaged, but it looks like it’s just the rear wheel that took the hit.

As we got to the side of the road, I noticed that my legs were actually shaking a little, and I couldn’t figure out if it was because of the sudden shock of nearly getting hit by a car, of perhaps a muscle spasm or twitch from the awkward way that I dismounted my bicycle. I’ve never thought of myself as a shock-susceptible person, and the speed at which I was hit was quite low, but I can’t completely rule it out I guess.

A witness showed up who was driving behind the Indian woman, but he turned out to be an acquaintance of hers so I’m not sure that’ll do me any good if they decide to make trouble. I don’t think they will though, they were nice people. And I’m far more likely to make trouble for them if I claim injuries or psychological trauma. There’ll be CCTV footage as well if I need it. But we settled on her paying for the bike repairs and that’ll be all.

What a strange day. I nearly committed to renting a new apartment yesterday, but ended up calling it off in the morning after having a second look at the place. Then I go cycling and get hit by a car, yet somehow remain unharmed. Two big things could have turned out a lot worse for me today, but I managed to get through it alright. I guess that makes this a good day.


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